Payton, 45
Offline, last seen Sun, 11 May 2025 06:38:10
About Me
I am contradiction ... I am a sophisticated lady and still a playful child, angelic yet devilish. I'm kind, sweet, stubborn and sarcastic. I'm quiet and shy but seldom meet a stranger. I hate not knowing but I love surprises. I'm a city chick and a country gal, I have a fiend for shoes but I love to be barefoot. Easygoing but opinionated, drunk but sober, care too much what others think yet not afraid to be myself. I carry myself with grace and confidence, some days I can be a total klutz. I am a girly girl that doesn't mind if I get dirt under my manicured nails. I don't believe in the fairy tale but I do know my happily ever after is out there waiting!I am an absolute contradiction... It can be hard for people to get a good read of who I am and I don't mind this at all. I do not let people into my life very easily, but the people I do I am friends with forever. I share very little yet I share quite a lot. I look innocent but always seem to surprise people. I'm very serious, yet laugh all the time. I am contemplative yet verbal. I love being outside yet can curl up inside with a book for days. I forgive easily but I never forget. I am like two sides of a coin, the dark and the light. Both are completely and legitimately me, it's just that one does not necessarily give any indication of the other. I don't deny any part of myself, I just don't share it with everyone.... but you're darn lucky if you see it! Thoughts change, I am changing person, I am a breathing chameleon, there is more to me than just one color, one thought, one track. So I contradict all the time. I may sound complicated or wishy washy but I'm actually very straight forward and simple. None of us wear the same mood, personality, or energy ***...we all contradict. I am looking for... Someone who is kind and honest. A good man with strong morals and values. Must be fit and active to keep up with me! A gentleman that appreciates getting dressed up on occasions and always takes pride in his appearance. I want a man that is adventurous and intelligent, playful and serious. Someone who will keep me on my toes and challenges me to be better. Someone who is like minded as me, that shares the same heart and falls for me from the inside out. Someone with a great sense of humor that keeps me laughing and knows that the smile on my face is just for him. I want to know unconditional love, untamed passion and a never ending friendship. I want a relationship that is emotionally intense, yet I want a relationship that is easy-going and relaxed. I want a person that loves me and can't live without me, I want to feel the same for him, however I don't want either of us to feel chained down or lose our individualism. I guess a lot of us settle for the safe kind of love, where you know you will have someone’s arms to return to at the end of the day. Where you know your heart is safe. I'm not settling. Deep down inside (somewhere we avoid going to), I think all of us crave for the type of love that tears us apart and messes with our mind. No, I am not talking about the emotionally destructive sort of relationships (or am I?) . What I mean is... I think all of us secretly want to push our limits, test our boundaries and lose ourselves in the intensity and passion of here and now because we only really have the NOW don't we? We want to be kept on the edge. (Yet we want to feel safe and secure in the knowledge that we will not spend the rest of our lives lonely and brokenhearted.) It is so hard to strike a balance. because why would I want a relationship that doesn’t bleed me dry? Then again, why would I want a relationship that bleeds me dry?All our young lives we search for someone to love, someone who makes us complete. We choose partners and change partners. We dance to a song of heartbreak and hope. All the while wondering if somewhere, somehow, there's someone perfect who might be searching for us. Love heightens our senses..reminds us that we are still alive, keeps our heart beating and longing as well as completely vulnerable. In the end, our body will age, our soul will be bruised and can't take the roller coaster ride anymore. For me, I am looking for an experience that is intoxicating, constant, changing, chasing, exploring and very similar to two *** a beautiful song together...Because it is a song, it is not safe, it can't be relaxed and you have to keep up with each other, and with a direction. Something outdoors would be great! Quiet dinner, ball game, lunch at my favorite winery, red dirt roads and a cold beverage... Basically anywhere that we can talk, listen, learn, share, laugh... see if we connect. Good luck to everyone I hope we all find what we are seeking.
PERSONAL INFORMATION
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Looking for
man
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Relationship
Divorced
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Have kids
No
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Wants kids
No
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Ethnicity
Caucasian
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Faith
Christian
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Body type
Average
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Height
5'3"
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Eye color
Green
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Smoke
No
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Drink
Yes, socially
INTERESTS
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